Dyna Mitte is speaking out about the crushing weight of her first month without son RJ Mitte.
The mother of the late “Breaking Bad” star, 34, posted a raw tribute to Instagram on Thursday, marking one month since his death by suicide in Brownsville, Texas, on Oct. 12. Dyna, who discovered her son’s body after he failed to answer her morning phone call, shared a photo of the two of them together alongside words of grief that laid bare her ongoing struggle.
“My beautiful boy, it has been a month since you left us. I miss you so much it hurts,” she wrote on the platform. “There are days that it feels like it happen [sic] today, and at times it feels like forever ago. I am trying to navigate through this new life, but it is so painfully difficult.”
Dyna continued her message with a litany of everything she has lost. “What I would not give to hold you again, see that beautiful smile, laugh at the crazy conversations we had, are [sic] just look at you,” she shared on Instagram. “I love you forever + time. Please continue to watch over us. With all my love, Mom.”
The post landed just one day before several of RJ’s former castmates gathered to honor him at a celebration of life ceremony in Los Angeles. Bryan Cranston, Aaron Paul and Bob Odenkirk were among those who attended the Nov. 7 service at Hope Lutheran Church in Hollywood, according to photos from the event.
Cranston, 69, who played RJ’s on-screen father Walter White for five seasons, had already paid public tribute in the immediate aftermath of the death. The Emmy winner recalled meeting RJ at age 14 when he was cast as Walter White Jr., a role the young actor inhabited with what Cranston described as “such joy and enthusiasm.”
“Born with Cerebral Palsy, he never – ever – allowed that challenge to be an excuse for anything,” Cranston wrote via Instagram. “He met the demanding shooting schedule head on with great determination.”
The veteran actor revealed a haunting detail about their final months: the two had been trying to schedule a lunch that never happened. He now grapples with whether that meeting “would have changed his future.”
RJ lived with cerebral palsy and became a prominent disabilities advocate alongside his acting career. His mother previously said that she believes his death may have been a spur-of-the-moment decision, noting that he did not appear to leave a note behind. Dyna had driven to his home with lunch on Oct. 12 after he failed to answer her 11 a.m. Call, discovering him upon arrival.
Anna Gunn, who played RJ’s on-screen mother Skyler White, was among other “Breaking Bad” figures who honored him in the days following his death. The AMC drama, which ran from 2008 to 2013, earned RJ widespread recognition for bringing lived experience to the role of a teenager with cerebral palsy navigating his father’s transformation into a methamphetamine kingpin.
A representative for RJ confirmed shortly after his passing that the cause of death was suicide. The rep’s statement highlighted how RJ “drew from his own experience living with cerebral palsy” to build “a platform on disability awareness and inclusion.”
Dyna has described her son as a “special, special soul” and called his time on “Breaking Bad” an “incredible experience for [her] son.” Her Thursday Instagram post represents her most extensive public reflection since those initial interviews in October, offering a window into how the first month of bereavement has unfolded for the family.
The celebration of life at Hope Lutheran Church brought together key figures from the series that defined RJ’s public legacy. The gathering came nearly four weeks after the initial shock of his death, giving colleagues a formal opportunity to mourn together.
RJ’s work extended well beyond the five-season AMC hit. He continued acting in various film and television projects while maintaining his advocacy work, speaking frequently about representation for performers with disabilities in the entertainment industry.
Dyna Mitte’s Instagram tribute suggests the family continues to process a loss that arrived without warning. Her description of days that “feel like it happen [sic] today” captures the disorienting nature of early grief, while her request that he “continue to watch over us” frames her son in a protective role even after death.
The cast reunion at Hope Lutheran Church on Nov. 7 marked a significant moment of collective remembrance for a show whose ensemble has remained tight-knit more than a decade after its finale aired.